The waves are pounding on the sand tonightAs teenagers we build up that special moment in our minds so much that for far too few of us, it's impossible for the eventual reality to ever match the expectation and fantasy of what we expect and want our first time to be like. Jim Steinman's Surf's Up ever so perfectly captures that feeling, that anticipation of a first experience that we build up so much in our hearts and minds.
I want to take your hand and make it feel so right
I know I'm ready and I'll never be like this again
And the sky is trembling and the moon is pale
We're on the edge of forever and we're never gonna fail
I know you're ready and we're runnin' on the back of the wind
And my body is burning like a naked wire
I want to turn on the juice, I want to fall in the fire
I'm gonna drown in the ocean in a bottomless sea
I want to give you what I'm hoping you'll be giving to me
And when the waves are pounding on the sand tonight
I want to take your hand and make it good and make it right
And now the sky is trembling and the moon is pale
We're on the edge of forever and we're never gonna fail, no
How hard, how hard, how hard do I gotta try?
Surf's up, surf's up, surf's up and so am I, surf's up and so am I
How hard, how hard, how hard do I gotta try? (I want all of your love)
Surf's up (I need it so bad), surf's up (I need it so bad)
Surf's up and so am I (I gotta give you some love)
Surf's up and so am I, and so am I, and so am I, and so am I
The reality is often far coarser and clumsy than the fantasy... It's our first time after all, it's not like we have the experience to be "good and right." I seriously doubt Babe Ruth hit a home run in his very first at bat (he did start off as a pitcher after all, and a damn good one at that). That came with time and experience, it came from learning how to communicate with that special someone or those special someones-- learning which of her buttons to push and when and how.
But still, I remember that feeling. I remember idealizing the experience of not just losing my virginity but also falling in love... and being a teenager of course those feelings and emotions were cranked to eleven. And every time I listen to this song, I can't help but be taken back to my clumsy awkward adolescence... and it puts a smile on my face. In some ways the reality could never have lived up to the fantasy but in other ways the reality was, oh so much better. As a teen I was quite self-absorbed, lost in my own world. I kept to myself, I was a loner by nature. I did have a handful of close friends and they were great but being so self-absorbed, I remember the fantasy being all about me... Whereas the reality is all about the "us." There's a certain symbiosis in love that goes far beyond what I ever imagined it could be.
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